Pardon me...

Ok, so I haven't been very religious about posting blogs like everyone else. Sorry about that. (Not that I have a lot of readers to begin with.)

So recently, I have been very VERY busy with my offline life, spending less and less time doing this like this, and also going online just to see who notices the things I post, submit, etc. If anyone would ask me how life is right now, I'll probably shrug and say, "It's cool, doin' okay, just right," and all those lame reflex answers. Yes, reflex answers! Replies to questions like "how are you, what's up, how's it goin'?" when you really can't afford to tell them everything, and mostly, it's the entire opposite of the term OK.

And honestly, it's like a glimpse of Hell every day! I wake up to the sound of my alarms ringing, starting my day really early, but ending it way too late. I spend the whole day being subject to a lot of stressing factors, some of it more annoying than others. I do end up gettin' pissed at some point, but what ticks me off more is that I can't vent it out like other people can. You can say I have anger management issues, which scares me because of the things I thought of that would happen in case something triggers me to "let it all out."



I saw this picture from Cyanide and Happiness, and it gave me a good idea on venting out negativity and crap. But if what the comic depicted happened in my case, it would be like that at all. IT'LL BE MUCH MUCH WORSE.

But yeah, highly unlikely for a jar of pure negative energy explode like that on you. So I guess I'll just have to find another way. It just sucks because I can't really do anything about it that it makes me feel helpless and incapable of coping with it. Also, it aggravates me so much that it actually affects how I do in school, how I go about my daily life, and everything else in between.

So pardon me for not blogging like a maniac, and I do hope that I get to find my "Hate Jar" because I'm having that urge to badmouth someone in particular again.

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Bad vibes all around!

I promised myself I wouldn't start my 2011 with a negative thought, but it's only been eight days into the new year, and I find myself just wanting to burst into flames from the negativity I have boiling inside me.

So I get home from class, which was a bore if you ask me, all tired and wanting to just ease my way into slumber. But you know what the awful surprise was waiting for me in the kitchen which was adjacent to my room? This girl that I hooked up with, but I let go because she was a promiscuous b*tch! Yeah, that just got me from mellow and chillax, to wanting to kick babies and make little children cry to death!! ARGH!!

I know, I know...I should try to man up and not make a big deal out of it. But she just waltzes around like nothing happened between us! Can you imagine what that would be like, having to see her smug face, all smiling and laughing along with my aunts and uncles.

It just irritates me to the bones! I just wish she disappeared from my life, if not this country! But hopefully, she gets to kiss my sweet ass goodbye FOREVER once I move to the US, which will be pretty soon. Then I'll find someone a whole lot better than her to rub it in her face that she's not worth anything to me at all!

I just hope she gets what she deserves for leaving someone devoted for someone closer to her house. AND SCREW HER! I HOPE SHE GETS PREGNANT FROM BEING SCREWED BY THAT GUY ALMOST EVERY CHANCE THEY GET!

Another 2 a.m. epiphany!

I've been getting a lot of these lately.

Notice how some people find thousands (hyperbole much?) of ways to reason out why they are sad or lonely? It's like almost every thing that comes up becomes a reason to be in grief and be in a bad mood.

I'm not saying we shouldn't let it all out from time to time, it's just that some people tend to overdo things. They're so vocal about the fact that they are single, broken hearted, etc, that it's getting annoying more than it is troubling. Over and over again, they try to make it clear that they are sad.

e.g.
"SMP ako, huhuhu...(posted more than 50 times either by the same person or not)"
"Buti pa kayo, masaya..."

OK, I GET IT! YOU'RE NOT HAPPY! >_<

But why do they do that? Is it because of the longing they get whenever they see other people who are happy? Do they miss that happiness, or do they wish they were the ones who were happy? Is it envy? Is it despair?

Whatever the reason for one's pain, there's always bound to be a positive side to it. Never dwell on your sorrows, you'll die faster. (That's a fact.) Never sit in your stagnant puddle of sadness, move on.

"We can never really enjoy the sunshine without a little rain."

I don't know who coined that phrase, but he/she must be a smart person. For one, I try to be happy, as much as I can. I try to see things as they are. I appreciate what I have. I don't long for what is not needed. Embrace what comes, and make the most of it, be it a loss, a crisis, or just a bad day.

Epiphanies @ 2 a.m.

I just woke up reaaaaaally early!! 2 am, man!! TWO IN THE F*CKING MORNING!!
As I woke up violently, swinging my arms forward as I sat up, the first thing that went to my crazy, rotten head was, "WHAT THE F*CK AM I DOING UP THIS EARLY!! ARGH!!WRAAAAAAAAAAAAA--"

The reason I got frustrated about this is because when I wake up and get up, I don't get to sleep again. It's like those sick jokes that you laugh at, then you realize it wasn't really funny at all and it was horrible in a sense that it wasn't nice in any way, and you can't take back the fact that you laughed at it and it made you feel like an evil person by enjoying that sick, nasty joke. Just...ARRRRRRRGH!! >_<

THEN! OUT OF THE BLUE, LIKE A NINJA!! I just had a realization, I slight agreement with myself. It was like my mind had a congress meeting that ended in 0.12 seconds. And you now what was legislated, what was turned into a law in my little congress I have in my head??

I HATE OBNOXIOUS PEOPLE!!!

Sure, I talk a lot too since I'm an opinionated person, but they just set the bar for the worst, most irritating people you would have to spend 3 hours with. Now, I know no one likes those bitchy, sons of God-forsaken biatches, but seriously, I hated their guts, and all their loud, whiny internal organs with it!

They just make me wanna punch them in the face till they shut up permanently, you know...just....WRRRRAAAAAAAAAGH!!

And you know what else I hate about them? The fact that their special move, their special skill, or what I call, their MOST ANNOYING THINGS TO HATE ARE THE FOLLOWING:

1. Being a kiss-ass
2. Randomly saying sh*t out loud
3. Actually making other people seem obnoxious
4. Just being alive.

So yeah, I can safely say that given ample time and legal rights to kill them with my bare hands, they will perish. I will vanquish their evil annoyance and inconvenience.

Also, you know how annoying they are already, but their voice just adds to it. Its like their voice box has a "ANNOY" setting, much like those clicking dials you see on cartoons, but theirs go from

Soft > Adequate > Noticable > Audible > Loud > F*UCKING ANNOYING!

I know! You're saying, "That's too much hate man..."

But sometimes, just seeing them makes me wanna scream, "I HATE YOU!!! I CURSE YOUR SOUL TO ETERNAL DAMNATION!! EVIL BEGONE!!"

But funny thing is, these all happen inside my head. Locked deep down my head, in that tiny little corner where no one will now. That little corner in my head that screams the total opposite of mild-mannered. You'll know that you got there when you hear the heavy metal rock music and see the gorefest start, with limbs, innards, and organs start flying around.

But that's just inside my head. It would be a pain in the @ss to clean up after that. So I guess these would have to wait. I'm amazed that I haven't gone apesh*t on any of them, which brings me to another epiphany,

MY LONGER TOLERANCE FOR SICK, MOTHERF*CKERS.

Yeah, back then, I has a bas case of retaliation fever, where I try to get back at the people who wrong me. But I grew tired of that and resorted to just saying under my breath, "You sick, motherf*cking a$$hole..."

Yeah, I say that under my breath. Unnoticeable. Untraceable. Like a ninja in the shadows.

And you know when I say that, RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEIR SMUG FACES. I just go, "Ahahahaha...[sick, f*cking bitch]...right..."

Yeah, I have a lot of negativity going on around here, so let me just stop myself here.

FACT: I HATE OBNOXIOUS PEOPLE

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So I was out with my cousins post-All Souls' Day (did I get that right? I dunno...not very good with dates and calendars, you see...), and we went to this resort in Antipolo. It was a very nice place, and if you want to see the place itself, I'll put a link right after this blog. So while I was there, I wondered why we were the only ones there. Then I thought it's probably because of the season we went there. So I began to worry that it would be boring and dull and stuff like that. But as the hours passed, I soon came to realize just how much fun my relatives can be. It dawned upon me that these people were so fun that I didn't even mind the time, or the fact that we were the only ones there making a fool of ourselves as we played like little boys. It was hella fun, and it made me forget my worries, my fears, and my sorrows, even if it was just for a day. I really wish we had more time to bond and talk about stuff. I miss the fact that they made me feel relaxed, and as if I have no one else's weight in my shoulders except mine. I thank them for the fact that they gave me a glimpse of the reality that I, too, need to lighten and loosen up. I am so thankful that they are my relatives.

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