Otanjou-bi Omedetou Gozaimasu!!

Yay! Another depressing countdown done! Yes, it's my former best friend's birthday today! And guess what, I didn't do anything or even have a single idea what to do for her, or give. I'm such a lame friend that I know next to nothing about what she likes now. Yay me for being the lousiest friend ever. Maybe that's the reason she replaced me like a used rag. Or maybe the fact that I did something incredibly stupid on her birthday 4 years ago. Either way, I know I won't be getting her back. Maybe when pigs fly, but as of late, I haven't seen any aerial swines just yet. Maybe when we see white crows? Hmmmm...gotta talk to my resident genetic engineer first. It's like... IMPOSIBURUUUU!! Yes folks! I've been without a proper best bud since '04! Aaaaaand it probably will go on till the day I die. But I don't mind. I guess not everyone is cut out to be a best friend. I dunno why but I stayed up for this. Must be that stinking feeling of regret that looms over me whenever I'm about to sleep in the wee hours of the night. But this one's different, it's like a powerful void inside my heart's been brought up from the void that is my sea of regrets. I will probably be facing an entire day of sadness while she's having a blast, but I'm blaming no one...EXCEPT MYSELF!! In the end, it's just another day for me. Important, but not something I can do anything about. Knowing that I'm as insignificant to her as a game request to some "-ville" from Facebook just proves that I shouldn't bother with it, but no matter what I do, I still wished for that day I can call her at 2 in the morning to come pick me up because I drank too much and couldn't drive myself home, saying how much I love her and that she's the best friend in the entire cosmos. But yeah, it wont happen...because I'm such a d*** for falling for her. So I suppose this means I'll be "celebrating" my fourth year without a best friend today. Drinks on me!! By the way, I wrote this while listening to my iPod, who apparently thinks songs by John Mayer, Jason Mraz, and The Script seemed appropriate. #FML #ForeverAlone