Guess what, I'm once again a victim of a vixen. Smitten by another text message, hurt by petty words. Pathetic, yes? But this poor heart has had just about enough. This ticker's not so mild-mannered anymore. And now look where it led him, same place he started. He's foolish, almost senile. He does things before thinking things through, loving before taking a breather. He's STUPID.
My brain says no, he says go. It's like I'm managed by two entities that do nothing but contradict each other. Leading towards chaos both in me, and in the relationships I undertake. All there is will be sorrow and pain, in my part anyways.
For years, I've done nothing but love because I'm needy. But now that I've grown serious, she babbles about me not being there physically. She longs for someone near her, says she misses those near her.
WHAT THE HELL!! HOW COULD YOU MISS SOMEONE YOU SEE EVERY FUCKING SINGLE DAY?! WHAT! THE! HELL!!?
It's like a sad sad joke being played on me by everyone, all of them laughing at me like an idiot! FUCK THIS!
I'm leaving the country anyways, I'd find someone better than anyone I've ever been. Especially someone with a logic that has validity and sense!
I may love you, but it doesnt mean I cant judge you because, damn girl, your logic about things is screwed!!
DAMMIT!! HOW COULD YOU MISS SOMEONE YOU SEE EVERY SINGLE DAY?! FUCK!!
She's not taking me seriously!! I fucking hate it when I say something and they take it as nothing of importance!
I SPEAK LESS AND LESS THAT WAY! Lessens the words I waste that fall into deaf ears!
It's the same as speaking to a wall!!
WHAT THE HELL!!?
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