So help me, God.

It's funny how we sometimes put effort or one thing, only for it to be taken from us. Funny how we cherish one thing, but in the end, it falls into someone else's hand. Funny how we try to be the best we can, but end up being left behind to turn into our worst possible self.

Funny how love works for some of us.

Most of us have a very idealistic concept of love. Some still believe in the concept of fairytale-like romances, some think it's more of a competition. Some base it on the movies they watch, some on the books they read. Some think proximity is important, some say it's the thought and devotion that counts. Some say it's based on the laws of attraction, some debate it to be purely instinct.

What ever viewpoint you have on love and affection, all I can say about it right now is...

It's one h*ll of a crazy b*tch with no sense of humor.

After being someone who loved with all that I had, I slowly grew numb to being left behind by someone who got what she want, then left. Be it a couple of movies, meals, trinkets, etc etc. It was all the same, I was spent like a piece of tissue paper, thrown away soggy and soiled. With no care as whether I would live or die. It became a never-ending cycle.

Well, not anymore.

I now refuse to follow my heart, and think before I fall. Never again will I have to suffer the consequences of loving someone UNDESERVING and UNWORTHY of such love.

I'm not saying that my love is the most sacred and precious thing there is. I'm saying that only those who would care enough to appreciate and cherish my love are the only people worthy of it. I will never waste my love, life, energies, and resources on someone who's nothing more than a LEECH.

So help me, God.