Double Double

So now I am back in this game of love. And this time, I'm playing with a flame two year's in the making. I knew her in one of the gathering I have attended. It's been a fun while with her, she was sweet, I was sweet to her, we teased each other, had fights, hugged, kissed, etc etc...you know the drill...

We almost turned into a real couple, but circumstances and people around us didn't agree. I began to see her less and less, we talked less and less, it even almost went cold for the both of us. But I decided that I'd wait on her, hoping that one day we'd have the chance to make it right.

And after almost two years, she's now back into my life! I was thrilled to see her again, as she smiled at me, standing the same height as I was, wearing a pink-and-white sun dress that reached just above her knees. What really took me away was how she smiled at me when she first saw me after almost two years. But what really got me was when we hugged. I felt a spark run up and down my body, from the sole of my feet to the top of my head. It felt great that I almost thought my knees buckled.

I'm happy that she's back into my life, and I'm serious about it this time. No more childish segues. I'm willing to go straight to the point this time. Literally kneel in front of her if I had to. I let her slip away from me once, but I'm not gonna do it again.

But I can't help but notice something when we first met.

All she ever mentioned other than the things we used to do, places we've been, and all that, was her ex-boyfriend, who we met the same day we went on our first date. I didn't want to ask what happened between them because I didn't want to bring up the past, but she talked about how they used to go here and there, things he did and all that, although not all the time, but still, in several occasions.

But it sort of hurt when she mentions them, as if there's something she's missing. I'm scared to lose her, but sooner or later, I'd have to talk to her about it. I'm not quick to judge, but I have this strange feeling that I'm just here on the rebound, which I have known isn't a very good situation to be in.

I really can't say anything about this. I just hope and pray that this time, no screw-ups.