Leaving.

Greetings, infidels~! [Ok, that was rude. Sorry...] Great news! I recently just got my US visa approved. [Yay! He's gone for good! Woohoo!!] Yep, this ol' chap's leaving for Uncle Sam! In a few month's time, I'll be stepping into a different kind of soil! But soon, I'll be toiling like a work horse to earn a living of my own. I know my relatives over there are excited about it too, but I know I'll soon have to earn my keep for myself. Being a 21-year-old bum is NOT good. But I do look forward to this giant leap in my life. To be able to earn for myself, and start a life I can call my own, that's something I've been yearning for. To be able to buy what I want without having to ask someone for money. And to go to places without having to think of how I'll get there and how much I can spend. I also look forward to being in a totally different environment. Although the current environment that I am in is quite good, minus the crappy roads, lots of squatters with their dozens of toddlers, and the other things no one's proud of. Also, to be able to spend time with my relatives there, who are all hyped up that we'll be going there soon. I look forward to all the times we'll be spending together. THE WEATHER! Yes, of course! Oh, how I'd like to escape the weather we're having these past few months. I mean, man, have you seen the havoc? And all that water! WATER EVERYWHERE!! Also, I'll be able to make good use of my sweatshirts! And jackets! But I gotta admit, I'm having a few troubles about leaving. Ok, maybe a lot, but yeah...they're there. First, I still haven't had a decent conversation with my dare-I-say best friend turned crush turned nothing. Yeah, it all went downhill when I tried to tell her I liked her beyond the "Friends Zone." I dunno if she still wants to keep that friendship, but we haven't talked much ever since, it's been almost 2 years. [I think...wasn't counting...too depressed to think about it...] I really wish I could clear things up before I go. But based on the fact that I'm one nutless b*tch, I probably wouldn't have the balls to do so. But I really REALLY wanna patch things up. I know it may be too late, but at least I won't have to go with a heavy heart towards her. Second, I haven't really had a relationship that stuck while I was here. Like a LEGIT girlfriend and what-not. It was all hidden. Like a relationship ninja. THAT hidden. I mean, I never really got into a relationship that was actually legitimate enough to introduce the girl to my parents. My mom even made a joke that I may have an American citizen as a first girlfriend. IF ONLY SHE KNEW! But seriously, I really wish I had a chance to be in a relationship that I didn't have to hide. Oh well, guess that chance's out the window. And besides, if ever I got into a relationship, I'd feel bad for the girl. I mean, having to put up with a long-distance relationship isn't easy. I've been there, it sucks like eggs. Third, I'll be leaving behind a lot of things I've grown to love and got used to. Like commuting, EDSA, MRT, crowded malls, sari-sari stores, etc. As a typical Pinoy citizen, I've grown to love a lot of things in this 7,000+-island archipelago of ours. I'll miss a lot of things when I'm seas away from my motherland. I just wish it'll still be there to accept me with open arms when I get back. Fourth, friends. Yes, I know I haven't really had good friends since high school, but they're friends regardless. They've been there, saw different sides of me, stuff like that. But I'll miss my high school friends the most, also those coming from the church I've grown up in. Well, I can go on and on about this, but really, it won't make much of a difference...so I bid thee fare well Philippines, United States of America, here I come!