Things I Used To Like and Things I Like Now

A lot has changed in the past few years. I once thought that I'd settle down and be happy with someone some time soon. But chances are it wont even happen at all. And I'm fine with it. I used to be so passionate about meeting that certain someone and growing old with them. But for some reason, that part of me died. And it was so subtle, that I didn't even notice it till now.

I could think of a hundred reasons why that came to be, but to simply put it, LIFE.

Life changes people, opens their eyes to new things, makes them realize things they didn't notice and were too blinded to see in the past. Life happened to me, and it weathered me to what I am now.
Things I used to like, in terms of preference in women, clothing, music, etc. It all changed from what I wanted 5 or 7 years ago.

 I used to like ladies with long, jet-black hair. I guess it stems from the fact that my former best friend has long, flowing, shiny black hair. But of course, since the tragedy that is the falling apart between us, it grew on me subconsciously. I wanted my ex girlfriend to never cut her hair short, keep them untied, etc. It was like I didn't let go of one of the things I liked about my first love that I found in my best friend. Which is sad, by the way. Pathetic at some point.





Now, I can't help but be attracted to someone with brightly colored/dyed hair. It's like kryptonite to me now. I'm still attracted to women of natural hair color, be it red, blonde, black, etc. It's just that my eyes more than likely looks for your striking colors. It makes me think that you express yourself well, you're very open about things and you have this sense of acceptance towards others. I know it's an assumption, but that's just how I feel you would be like. I hope I'm not offending anyone with what I'm saying, but that's how it is in my silly, little head.

Again, it's just a preference and not a bias.

I used to hate heartfelt movies. Thought they were too sappy and cheesy. But since having a girlfriend, I've grown used to watching them and again, it grew on me. But after failed relationships, it stuck to me. I now watch movies that high school me would have chucked out the window and just watched tokusatsu, anime, or some comedy show. But now, I've become more open and watch various movies and actually relate to them.

There's a lot more things that have changed since I last checked myself, more than just appearance-wise. I truly think that embracing change is a good thing, but as much as it is promising, it's still pretty scary. I'm not sure if most of the changes I have undergone are actually for the better, but it's probably very different from what I was back then.

I don't really now if the man I am now is a lot better than who I used to be as a whole. It's hard to tell from my perspective, because I still see myself as a guy who's still not ready for anything, pretty much screwed in every aspect of his life, and probably wont be achieving much till a few more years of so. Hopefully, I did learn something from the past few years that I've gone through, and I certainly never want to be as stupid as I was a few years back.

Screw you, past me, for making me deal with your problems!