Off Limits

When I was in my alma mater, way back when I was younger, we had this "Off Limits" rule on some areas around the school. We used to push classmates into said areas and tease them for getting into said area. We got scolded and demerits from being caught in those areas and were sanctioned for it.

Not much useful info there, but it's certainly related to happened to me just a few moments ago.

I once thought that I had this curse on me that every girl in my life that I love will be a whole lot happier after they leave me. Maybe because all of those who did leave were far better off. A lot of things ran through my overly-thoughtful mind. Maybe I'm no good for anyone, maybe I lack what anyone would want, or maybe I just overall suck at relationships. Questions, "what-if's," worst case scenarios, regrets, etc. These flooded my head like crazy, and at the most untimely hours,too (e.g. when I'm about to sleep).

Then after what happened just a few minutes from this blog as well as realizations as countless hours of thinking by myself, I grew to realize that some things are not meant to be yours. It'll be unfair, as life always is, but you're powerless and can do nothing about it. It's like someone drew a line in front of you, saying that crossing said line would result to your destruction. And nobody wants to be broken down into nothingness, right?

All our lives, we come across something we like, but can never have. It may be material or not, but no matter how much we try to justify ourselves and put out a massive amount of effort, it all boils down to one fact: OFF LIMITS

I took a deep breath, cleared my mind, and braced myself. It may hurt me, but at least now I know something that would keep me from being in an awkward situation. I need to learn how to accept that not everything I want is bound to be mine. I realized it the hard way, I just hope that someone would read this and not go through what I did.

Good day!